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Would you like some help forgiving yourself? It's important that you do it, even without my help.

I'll keep an open mind while listening to you, on both your own actions and Minamitsu's.

[She knows a whole lot about what her captain is capable of. She's probably not going to be surprised, or even disappointed. Dish it up, Madoka.]

[ she hesitates, but doesn't answer the question. ]

the ship does things to people terrible things murasa-san has been effected by it a few times and attacked people and ive been trying to help her but the last time it happened i i did the same thing to a lot of my friends including her

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That's unfortunate.

Did she injure anyone?

[Murasa having her powers and losing it and being next to the open sea was... not something Ichirin figured had a happy ending for anyone.]

And please don't worry about hurting Minamitsu. I'm sure she forgives you, as will the rest of your friends.

yes but she did apologize to people like i did to her but what i did was probably worse

[She's not mad, but...]

What did you do to her?

i killed her im sorry

[This reply takes a lot longer for Ichirin to send than the previous ones.

Like twenty or so minutes longer.]

I see.

Unless I'm seeing things she's still here, isn't she?

death isnt permanent here you come back ive come back a few times too

Like reincarnation? And you remember these occurrences?

Can you tell me more if you're not too traumatised?

i remember two of them i think its more like a revival than a reincarnation what would you like to know?

Why did you have to exterminate Minamitsu?

[Hopefully her word choice conveys that she understands (or thinks) it was a necessity for Madoka and it wouldn't seem like she was accusing her of anything.]

it was a terrible week everyone who had died turned very violent both she and i were effected and we fought and then

[ she doesn't actually want to type it out a second time. ]

[She won't make Madoka type it out; she can fill in the blanks herself.]

I understand.

What do you mean by people who had died? Ghosts?

people who had died and revived ummm there was a time i turned into a ghost though now that i think about it

[ yyyeah... ]

That... doesn't make this place seem too dangerous; knowing that death isn't permanent.

But perhaps that itself is scary enough.

[People losing the need to take care of themselves would be bad for them. Really bad.]

yes and the more deaths you had died the more violent you were that week

You can stop thinking about this if you want. I'm sorry I made you.

[Is she right in guessing Madoka was getting upset recalling those days?]

I'm sure Minamitsu doesn't hold it against you. She's probably grateful, but keep that to yourself.

no she told me that too but dont be sorry i shouldnt run away from the fact that this happened

I don't dislike that attitude, but you shouldn't torment yourself with the past like that, alright?

i guess not ill try my best but its hard

It isn't easy, but you can do it. I'll be here if you need to talk about anything, too.

[Look how nice she's being so far. And she only just got here, more or less!]

[ she appreciates it a lot. ]

i hope so but thank you for the offer and thank you for not blaming me or murasa-san

Nothing could change how I feel towards Minamitsu, remember?

And I can tell you are a nice girl, Madoka.

tthanks you definitely are too for listening to me